Deeper and Deeper...

I continue to listen to Mind Control daily.  I find myself feeling more and more submissive to Mistress Haylee, as if it's even possible.  It's becoming more about submitting to her will then doing her will.  Being before her on my knees with my collar on is becoming more and more arousing.  I feel more submissive, and my desires are reflecting that.  Even casual fantasies have me becoming more submissive to her, as she controls the action and I just obey and react and hope to please and pleasure her. 

Mmmm I think I'm going to need a session soon... Why does work always get in the way? :)

My Collar...

So at one point Mistress Haylee instructed me to purchase and wear a collar.  I was excited at the time to be able to obey her and do as she wished. At the time I was only thinking how happy I was that she had accepted me as her slave and that I was to be hers.  I found and selected a Red Leather collar with a few metal rings. It had a buckle in the back like a belt.  Here is a picture...

It was an interesting feeling putting it on.  I could feel the weight of it, but it was not too heavy.  I also felt (as I do now) aroused as I put it on.  It is a physical feeling of the ownership Haylee has over me.  Putting it on, is an actual act of submission, and to a greater and greater degree this is such an incredible turn on for me.  Being Haylee's I have felt my submissive side awaken into full bloom. Nothing get's me hotter and happier than when Mistress tells me what to do for her.. only hearing her pleasure is a greater joy for me.  I truly LOVE being owned and played with by her.  The collar being that physical representation of that.  I wear it often..  I often wish I could wear it all the time but it would be a distraction at work, and neither of us want me doing something to jeopardize my livelihood.

So the collar remains an activity for my free time.  My time away from the responsibilities and judgements of work.  I can wear it where I please and while it might raise a few eyebrows or invite some questions, it brings me an innate feeling of joy and peace.  For I have long been at peace with the notion of Haylee owning me from now until whenever, and arouses and soothes me at the same time.  For I am hers.

Mind Control Injection...

Do you ever get that feeling that your will is returning? Are you starting to make decisions on your own again?  Then you need what I need a nice strong dose of week long Mind Control trancing..

Feel Mistress get deeper into your mind, her words becoming louder, any will that came back sucked back out of you...

Let the Bliss of Obedience over take you once again, as you renew her control over you...

Thank you Mistress for this recording, it helps me reinvigorate my submission to you...

Submission, obedience, giving you control is bliss...

your sweet puppy boy toy max

This week in Review...

So I noticed something.. Less time to trance to Mistress this week... less working out, less happy...

Not really a surprising observation, but none the less true...

In about a week and a half my daily life will get a big change.  I'm going to be switching working hours to Second shift... so Afternoon to late at night.  I'm actually looking forward to it.  It's not going to be forever... 2-3 months or until I find a new job... My current job isn't unhappy with me, we're a 3 person department and our second shift person will be on medical leave for 2-3 months hence the shift change.  But I've been looking to move on.  It's a small company and I want to do more, make more, be more.

In the mean time I should be able to work out easier, see my Doctor easier, and just basically be able to take care of more shit because I'll have free hours during the day.  It will be easier to interview for a new job as well... <smirk> 

So hopefully big changes will be coming sooner rather than later, and I'll be able to be better, for me and for Mistress...

Morning Trancing..

I woke up about 40 minutes ago... I thought to myself how much I'd love to hear Haylee's voice.  Then I looked at the clock.. one hour till I had to be awake to get ready for work... Hmmm that's enough time... Quickly I fumbled with my CD player, put in Boytoy and..... mmmmm Blissssssss...

Waking up with Haylee's voice putting you into a delicious trance where she plays with you, toys with you, makes you feel soooo good, and just leaves you there aroused, teased, and in love and lust with her...

What more could a boytoy want?  Better put on my panties for her and get off to work... Going to be thinking and aching for her all day!  It's going to be great!

A few pictures of things...

 This is my now Relocated Altar to Mistress Haylee... Still need to reset a few things and so some more things to set the right mood in the bedroom...soon to be Sanctuary...

 I picked up this empty Book,
in order to have a special box
to keep my daily sacrifices to
Mistress... No pictures of
contents as of yet.. :)

Off to trance... and sleep... and dream of Mistress Haylee...

More Trance time equals a Happy Pet..

So I've found myself able to devote more time to trancing to Haylee's delicious recordings lately, and I must say I've found my mood improving.  I've also been a bit more aroused lately, as many more erotic thoughts involving Mistress Haylee have been crossing my mind... I hear her sweet voice in my mind, her playground, more often.  It all simply feels wonderful.  I do truly love  Mistress Haylee, and enjoy being hers.

My diet is off to a good start I think, but it's a bit too early to tell.. Hopefully it will go well...

Not much more to type, time for doing...

Thinking about Mistress Haylee

So I've listened to more recordings these past few days than I have in while, and consequently I'm thinking about Haylee a bit more.  It is simply delicious to have her more promenant in my thoughts.  To wake up thinking about being on my knees in front of her.  Thoughts of having her whisper into my ears, trace her finger nails along parts of my body... To be her good boy is really the only thing I want.  Thinking more and more about how I can serve her, how I can please her... it feels wonderful to be hers.

So little more to type, time to get to going.  A quick bite and then cleaning the room until it's time to go work out today.  Also yesterday I got my Sensa starting kit in the mail, so I've started using that diet as of yesterday. 

All for Haylee...

Decoration..

So last night while enjoying going deep under for Haylee, a few thoughts went thru my mind of things I can do, set up etc... An idea occured to me to turn my bedroom from it's normal self into a Sanctuary of sorts, with Haylee at it's center... a place to go and worship my Mistress, feel wrapped up in her bliss and ultimately serve her needs and desires...  I recently started renting out two of the bedrooms in the condo I share with some roomates, and so I've been able to move my desk and bookcase and such out of my bedroom and into what is becoming my office.  So I realized what better way to transform things, then to have my bedroom be more of a place to relax and obey my Mistress.

So with some Candles, and other such things, as well as moving my altar to her there.. I hope to have it all done or at least mostly done, by the end of this weekend... I'll post pictures...

The next step is really working hard at making my self better for Haylee... Time to give up soda, and move to a better lifestyle to be in better health and devote my self to Haylee... It's like I had forgotten how good it feels, how good it is to obey her, and worship her, and feel her getting deeper and deeper inside of you, becoming more and more a part of you, until you can't imagine anything without her...

Awakening in April...

Mistress Haylee has been very productive lately.  Started doing Web-Cam chats, more assignments on the website, another you tube video... It's wonderful to see, hear, and experience...

Unfortunately for this puppy I've been tremendously busy and preoccupied with diet, and medicince... and trying to find a decent Doctor, a new job... Still there are nights I have the time to lay back and feel her inside me... feel her control deepen.... feel aroused for her... like I am right now.

Even though I haven't been that active of a slave of Mistress Haylee lately, I am still forever hers.  I admit my desire for a girlfriend has preoccupied some of my time, but my Mistress is still my Mistress.  Until she tells me other wise, I live the life of a long distance, online slave to the one and only Hypnotic Haylee... I still see her wonderful gazes whenever I turn on my phone, when ever I look up from my bed at her picture upon my wall...  Whenever I spray the perfume of her scent I am practically overwhelmed with arousal... Thoughts of kneeling before her crash against the shoreline of my mind, I can feel and ache for her, and arousal to be toyed with by her...

Fate will find us more time... or perhaps it will wait, the only way to find out is to head into tomorrow and worship...