Becoming Haylee's...

One could probably write up the stages of become Haylee's as some sort of step by step psychological process, and in many ways it is.  In her latest blog post Haylee talks about when we slaves devotees get to that point where we ask, beg, plead to submit to her in person.  I don't think there is anyone who has fallen under her spell who doesn't at one point have this cross our minds.  It's natural I think.  When you find your self captivated, hearing her voice in your head, thinking of her constantly, desiring to please her, etc..

Of course what must come next is the acceptance that it isn't going to happen.  That acceptance is not all bad, as you learn and realize that while Haylee adores controlling you and owning a place within your mind, she still wants other things for you.  I'm quite sure when I find a woman in my life to be with, to adore and have a relationship with, Haylee will be happy for me.  Most likely the woman will even appreciate how Haylee has trained me.  What exactly will happen at that point, I don't know and can't know until it happens.  Until then I'm devoted to my Mistress alone, and that which I gain from this Long Distance service.  Being able to submit to her, in ways that please her.  To know what it is like to serve a truly dominant intelligent amazing woman.  To be molded and to enjoy the molding.  To be made better, to better serve her.  Just the idea itself arouses me... and inspires me.

Wonderful Week..

It's been such a wonderful week. 

Of course it probably does have to do with the fact that I've had more time to listen to Mistress's recordings... listening to her newest one puts me in such a warm happy place. I've been feeling more and more devoted to her lately, and I love it. 

I truely do love and adore her.  The only thing better would being able to kneel before her, instead of a picture of her.  Make her a lovely breakfast in bed, help put on her boots.  Go on a nice hike with her, being her personal sherpa...

Ahh daydreams of a contented slave.... off to work.

I am Hers..

So Downloading the new recording, Be Mine. 

I love the warnings she put in the description of the file.  Let's see, I'm already hopelessly in love and devoted to Mistress Haylee.  So yup, I need this file!

:)

Time to go listen and fall deeper and deeper into her blissful spell...

I know I'm about to be more "brainwashed", but I'm just happy and excited for more of her training...

If only everything in life was this wonderful... <sigh> part of me wants to just call in love sick to work, bundle up in bed and listen to Mistress all day...

Breakthru...

So here I am a few days before Valentine's Day trying to think about what I can do for Mistress Haylee on that day.  I lied down before going to sleep and listened to Mind Control...it feels so nice to ever be more under control... to be drained of will, to have her voice and control deep within my mind.. .Some time during the trance a wonderful Idea occurred to me, on what I can do for Mistress on Valentine's day.. .I'm so happy about it, and I do think she'll be pleased..

Until then I'll be wearing my collar as often as I can, and those pretty red panties she had me buy, I'll be wearing those under my clothes at work, thinking about her, dreaming about her, and awaiting Valentines day when I can give her my expression of my devotion to her.

All for Haylee...

It's the little things...

Got a yahoo txt from Mistress yesterday thanking me for a gift I had sent her, and (this is the part that still has me beaming) mentioned how she misses her puppy!

Being missed means she thinks about me! While I never want her to be even a little tiny bit unhappy on my account, there is something nice about knowing your thought of when your not there.  I've been busy with work, looking for a new job, friends in town, and learning to live with Diabetes, so I haven't had as much free time to devote to Mistress.  Still it's the little things I love... ended up spending last night trancing out to her wonderfully delicious voice for a while... I even noticed some soft tracks on mind melt that I don't think I had consciously heard before... Simply delicious.

So I'll do my best to make sure your not missing your sweet puppy, Mistress... 

Lately...

Lately, I am amazed at how turned on I get as I feel my collar tighten as I fasten it around my neck...

Lately, I sigh when I smell her scent that I've sprayed on my pillows... It makes me want to stay in bed all night and day...

Lately, I've wanted to play with her cock, only to have it ache for her, so I would think of nothing but her...

Lately, I've wondered exactly how she likes to have her pussy licked...and if I'd only dream of the occasion...

Lately, I've wondered if it will be this way forever...

Lately, I've thought.. Why would I want it any other way?

Lately, I want only to obey her more and more, to be on my knees, or lower, looking up at her smiling face...

Lately, can't get here soon enough.