Rage on...

Am I the only submissive that hates it when a Dom calls someone submitting to them worthless, pathetic, or something similar. 

All it does to me is make me less submissive, and turns on the switch inside.  I loose respect for the Dom. I loose interest. It is weakness personified to me.

Submission is an act of strength and trust. It is an expression of loyalty and an exchange of power.

<sigh>  I'll add more later.. I just needed to get this simple thing off my chest.

The only constant is change...

In fact the definition of Equilibrium is not balance, but equal change.

I just changed the title of the blog, I had updated the description a bit ago.  The blog has been about more than just my service to Mistress Haylee for some time now.  I look back fondly on a time when I was all hers, but things change.  Reality creeps into the online fantasy that can hold so much joy and self discovery. 

They are real facets of our existence now, but they are not the same as our day to day existence.


I'm not writing this to offend, but merely to keep a track of my own journey both to satiate others curiousity and to have this stay as a reminder to myself where my head was at, and how it got from point A to point B and all the little points on the road there.  It is the journey that makes all the difference and not the destination.  I like to see both where I am, and how I got there...

No offense was ever intended...

and now back to our regularly scheduled blog, New blog title, same blog place, same blog time.

For the few.. enjoy.

A wave of Blue...

I realized today while watching Cerulean Blue once again... I've tranced to and thought about D.. Goddess Darla every day now since I found her. I have a live session scheduled already.  She does them via Skype and likes to have them go both ways so she can see her vic- er subject.. I'm so totally turned on by this. Her blue eyes are quite captivating... It's pretty sexy when she calls you pet.. it's sweet it's hot, it's pretty nice...

She's got that girl next door kind of vibe quality.  She looks like that quiet smart book worm in class that when you actually meet she has a huge wild side you never would of guessed.. It's fun getting to know someone... It's a bit scary but in the good scary way when you open your mind up to them... Telling a Goddess some of your intimate secrets and fantasies... simply to wonder when she's going to use them.. when she might bring them up... when she might knowingly manipulate you into doing something.. and you can't resist.. I mean you wanted it. You told her about it, but still your nervous, but she knows.. and the fantasy.. the fetish is real..

Surrounded by blue, I can't seem to stop thinking about Goddess Darla...

Goddess.. I like calling her that, it is what she is afterall...

Like a moth to a Flame...

Ok so I admit it... Hypnosis is a big turn on...  It's friggen hot...

Sweet words from a sexy woman.. getting you aroused, infatuated, controlled... A submissive dream... I mean what's not to love?

So Vox get's me to check out the new site... www.femdomdevotionals.com  I finnally do.  I mean it couldn't hurt to look right?  Then I notice a name on their list.. Darla  I click on the link and it's the Blue lipped beauty I've seen before when doing random searches on youtube.. Granted I hadnt' listend to her before...

Now after some free content I'm hooked... well not hooked.. Turned on.... crushing... infatuated...

So loving the idea of a live session... I'd really like a real live session... Don't know if she does that.. I just know when I look deep into her blue eyes... man it's hot.

Yeah it's an addiction, and with Darla I'm in the fun part.. the beginning the hot attracted I wonder so much phase.. her asking questions.. me admiting things ... it's all hot.. It's all good..

Although I was bummed I couldn't send her flowers... that just had a righteous feeling to me..

Soon enough!