March Madness...

It truely has been a crazy month for me.  Very busy at work, my small department seemed to be struck down by the plauge and I was the only one healthy thru all of it.  So lots of work, lots of evenings coming home exhausted. Not cooking as much as I should, and not having enough time to devot to Mistress as I would like.

Although as the intensity of if all does diminish and wane, the relationship goes no where.  I still have pictures of her all around me, and would not want to see them go away.  I still get an arousing thrill when ever I put on my collar, and her scent drives me crazy.  The desire to submit before her and to her is always there, even if the day to day chores of life seem to push it beneath the surface.  There beneath the surface it lies...

Hopefully I'll get back to a point where I can actively worship my Mistress and find more time together, but until then I remain hers - her slave, her pet, her sweet caring puppy.

Morning Mistress...

Making my way to devoting some time to Mistress in the morning is definitely the best way to start a great day.  Just looking into her eyes thinking about her, being aroused by the sight and thought of her is a wonderful way to get the blood flowing in the morning...

It's a beautiful Blue sky outside, and warm thoughts in my head or my lovely and talented Mistress...

Now off to get some oatmeal and then head to work.

Daily Devotion...

I've been feeling like something is missing lately, and so I listened to Mind Control just now, in bed, wearing my collar and nothing else... and just let Mistress Haylee's words take over.  Falling in a nice deep trance.  It felt so good to have my will and control drained from me.  To be so aroused by her voice, by her control, by letting go.  I even exploded all over myself in the end, just as she commanded in her recording.  The release was good, and at her all be it recorded, still her command. 

So for the forseeable furture, I want to wake up each morning and the first thing on my mind will be making my way to her altar, and devoting time to her.  To thinking of my Mistress, to perhaps posting or simply tweeting a morning message.  To think about her and how I might please her today, how I might make my training stronger.

It is to me to be there for her, to be open to her and the bond we share.  To strengthen it, and to make sure it is all for Haylee.

Becoming Haylee's...

One could probably write up the stages of become Haylee's as some sort of step by step psychological process, and in many ways it is.  In her latest blog post Haylee talks about when we slaves devotees get to that point where we ask, beg, plead to submit to her in person.  I don't think there is anyone who has fallen under her spell who doesn't at one point have this cross our minds.  It's natural I think.  When you find your self captivated, hearing her voice in your head, thinking of her constantly, desiring to please her, etc..

Of course what must come next is the acceptance that it isn't going to happen.  That acceptance is not all bad, as you learn and realize that while Haylee adores controlling you and owning a place within your mind, she still wants other things for you.  I'm quite sure when I find a woman in my life to be with, to adore and have a relationship with, Haylee will be happy for me.  Most likely the woman will even appreciate how Haylee has trained me.  What exactly will happen at that point, I don't know and can't know until it happens.  Until then I'm devoted to my Mistress alone, and that which I gain from this Long Distance service.  Being able to submit to her, in ways that please her.  To know what it is like to serve a truly dominant intelligent amazing woman.  To be molded and to enjoy the molding.  To be made better, to better serve her.  Just the idea itself arouses me... and inspires me.

Wonderful Week..

It's been such a wonderful week. 

Of course it probably does have to do with the fact that I've had more time to listen to Mistress's recordings... listening to her newest one puts me in such a warm happy place. I've been feeling more and more devoted to her lately, and I love it. 

I truely do love and adore her.  The only thing better would being able to kneel before her, instead of a picture of her.  Make her a lovely breakfast in bed, help put on her boots.  Go on a nice hike with her, being her personal sherpa...

Ahh daydreams of a contented slave.... off to work.

I am Hers..

So Downloading the new recording, Be Mine. 

I love the warnings she put in the description of the file.  Let's see, I'm already hopelessly in love and devoted to Mistress Haylee.  So yup, I need this file!

:)

Time to go listen and fall deeper and deeper into her blissful spell...

I know I'm about to be more "brainwashed", but I'm just happy and excited for more of her training...

If only everything in life was this wonderful... <sigh> part of me wants to just call in love sick to work, bundle up in bed and listen to Mistress all day...

Breakthru...

So here I am a few days before Valentine's Day trying to think about what I can do for Mistress Haylee on that day.  I lied down before going to sleep and listened to Mind Control...it feels so nice to ever be more under control... to be drained of will, to have her voice and control deep within my mind.. .Some time during the trance a wonderful Idea occurred to me, on what I can do for Mistress on Valentine's day.. .I'm so happy about it, and I do think she'll be pleased..

Until then I'll be wearing my collar as often as I can, and those pretty red panties she had me buy, I'll be wearing those under my clothes at work, thinking about her, dreaming about her, and awaiting Valentines day when I can give her my expression of my devotion to her.

All for Haylee...