Early Morning...

So I'm not a morning person.  In fact one of the reasons I live close to work is so that I can roll out of bed about 20 minutes before work, splash some water on my face, put on deodorant (I shower before bed), get dressed, and drive to work.  I do not wake up at the butt crack of dawn, and have some leisurely breakfast over the morning paper, go for a jog etc..  The early morning is for sleeping, or still being awake from the night before. 

However, if I do wake a bit early these days I find it can be nice.  I can roll out of bed, and crawl over to my Alter to Haylee.  I can stare at her image.  I can think about her, and my love for her.  I think about how devoted I am to her.  I think about how I enjoy the weight of her collar upon my neck.  I know she owns me, and I love it.  I can put off taking it off and heading out to the Vanilla world to earn my keep. I can just think about how lucky I am to be hers, and what I might be able to do that day to earn her praise. 

I am her good puppy, and while I know a part of me will always hope to one day get a chance to be at her knees and server her.  I know that what we do have is amazing.  I know now that serving Mistress does not limit me, but makes me more than I was.  So I can kneel here and gaze into a facsimile of her amazing eyes, and let her voice in my head tell take control of me for a little while.  I can put off the Vanilla world for a bit to feel her energy within me, and dedicate some time to her.

Then after a bit I sigh, take my collar off and place it upon her Alter.  I pick up my tag and put it on, for I wear it under my shirt a constant reminder to me of the privilege I continue to strive to earn.  The privilege of belonging to Mistress Haylee, to Haylee.

All for Haylee.

First Rule of Fight Club...

So I realize the only way one keeps anything from a Hypnotically seductive and all powerful Mistress such as Haylee is, Don't talk about it.

So I don't... but soon soon I will be able to. 

In the mean time I await my sizing rings, so I can most likely order the correct size cock-cage.  I doubt I'll be able to just get the right size ring for my CB-6k, but who knows.. Then I'll be all locked up for Mistress.. just the thought of it gets me aroused...  I mean really a physical barrier is the only that can really stop me once I get home.. I just get too hot and bothered when I can put on my collar and just think about her, dream about her, listen to her voice inside my head.. become transfixed by her image on my computer, kneel before my altar to her..

I have to say kneeling at an Altar dedicated to Haylee is the best.  I really don't know why more of her pets don't make one.  Not hard, not really expensive, and oh so satisfing..  Just wait till she commands you to use it.. Now that is good times, for all.

In the mean time I leave you with my favorite new saying,  "Her Desire is my Command to do"

Blissfully falling Deeper than before...

I just listened to Mind Melt again....

I fell so much farther and so much freeer than before.  I'm so glad I asked my Mistress the things I did.  She put it so elegantly...

"Hi there, no need to be jealous, what we share is very special and lovely. I am your Mistress, that is all that matters. You will find a great girl as well to be in a relationship with, and you will make me proud by making her very happy"

Simple, true and to the point.  I feel so free to fall so much farther.  So safe and loved, so happy to be obedient.  I was so aroused, I almost came a few times... but so happy I could hold back...

Thank you again Haylee, Thank you so many time for being My Mistress.

Progress on the CB...

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Please Stand By, We are experiencing technical Difficulties...

So I had to take the belt off yesterday.  I was having issues with the cleaning, and while the fit was much improved it still has issues.  Over the longer wear I found it to be chaffing at several places, and the rubber liner on the cod piece was working it's way off.  Regardless the health thing caused me to have to take it off, and after seeing (really smelling) the conditions inside I'm glad I did.  Neither myself or Mistress want any health problems, we just want me locked up for her because quite frankly it is hot. 

I get to submit, she get's more control, and we are both very turned on by it. So I'm looking into some other options, and staying chaste for Mistress Haylee.  I still have not orgasmed since I put it on or took it off, and I intend to remain that way until she tells me otherwise.

I do also have a CB-6000 that I'm trying to fit on but I've never been success at it.  After reading some of the information out there, I think that the base cock ring for the CB-6000 is just too small for me.  Honestly it's not really a hey look how big I am thing, because really this ring needs to be big enough to encompass your ball sac and flaccid penis.  The fact that I measure at 24.7cm is just what it is.  I tried a couple of things, but I know I won't be able to get it on properly unless I can get a bigger ring... e-mails have been sent.

So for the time being, I have only my will not to cum, and I can use the steel belt at night when I get home, but not wear it during the day. A decent compromise, until I can find something that fits for 24/7 wear. It seems now that I've brought this idea to Mistress Haylee she wants me locked as well.  I don't want to not be able to give her everything she wants from her puppy.

More updates will follow...

Locked up T-2 Weeks..

So Today is the day I start my 2 weeks locked up for Mistress Haylee.  It is with excitment, arousal, and a bit of fear I start this journey.  Mostly the fear part is making sure I can wear the belt without undo discomfort and that I'll be able to keep things clean.  It's not the aching for Mistress and the lack of an ability to touch myself that I'm worried about (should I be?) but physical discomfort, the belt getting in the way of the daily activities of my life. 

But I know Mistress is pretty excited about it, and I am as well. So here we go. 

I'll post updates of course...